h-u-r-t-s

I think a lot after reading jeng Miund’s post…
She reminded me that there’s no point flirting on something when you already decide never to act on it…

I made a mistake
I flirt with something…
I flirt with some values which I decided never to act on it
And it hurts
It really hurts

It feels hurt when I realize that I have broke the value
It feels hurt when I know that there is no single reason will justify my act
And it feels hurt when I understand that I let myself being used by something or someone

The feeling still appears
I feel it a lot, even after lots of hours… after quite some time when I force myself not to think about it anymore

Then the pain reduces when I see my friends, my partner in crime, even my “hi-good bye” friend. They might be not understand the thing I face currently but I have faith that they will stand by me, holding my hands and give their support even if I do terrible mistake.

And the pain reduces a lot when I think about God. Don’t know why… but I just feel that I can hear Him saying this

“Yeah… you made a mistake. So what? I still love you anyway”

So for all my friends who are currently feeling the same way like I do, I know that it is not easy but try to remember this… “You worth a lot! A lot more than your mistakes, a lot more than your failures”

And lets just face this tough world!